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2024

The past year

Going through your calendar

Go through last year’s calendar week by week. If you see an important event, family gathering, friendly get-together or a significant project, write it down here.

  • January

    SHITLOADS of 508 meetings, but i'm still not sure why. some kind of nextaiot thing was going on but the meetings are before that i'm introduced to the idea of microsaas, think all year about targeting it meeting with yoyo about his ev part picker idea photo walk with johnson afternoon tea with tammy at eslite hotel lunch with jake solomon lots of job interviews new years at the ji spot and uber eats photos? already negotiating rent lol little bit of cofactr work still apparently i was overwhelmed with stress already, setting up uber eats and ichefpos sales already slow lmao was inspired by john carmack and master's of doom lol planetcrafter, apparently was upset i was doing that richard distracting me aww oh dinner with framework ceo 508 bd meeting temporary new cleaner because other one like broke her leg or something? or was that later still playing baldur's gate 3 drama with favorited to get paid, what a fucking nightmare issues with zpool on server tryna download my spotify library hunting for bob's red mill alex obsession withcloudflare started looking into godot and game dev cause riley mentioned game making thing mid year i express continuing interest in serious programming and game programming tammy already fed up with charlie 508 2024 kickoff meeting we may have been undergoing a transition from slack to matrix? tammy got me awesome dinner for birthday

  • February

    cryptocurrency trading meeting tammy and i squeeze in nice dinner bookings cryptocurrency project kickoff? occassionally working at restaurant dinner with charlie's family at awesome chinese restaurant[ so many interviews starting to worry about making enough money at the restaurant already lol tried out cooking my meals for weight loss and saving money, that didn't last long starting to do dishes nightly at ji spot read unreasonable hospitality i guess cryptocurrency project was actually just getting started? tammy's making costco trips for the ji spot woah 101kg on weight finally hear back from david ji spot tasting menu read farseer tammy and i had an yilan trip? muwhahaha pirate headspace work on running average calorie app deploy inkspot, foss figma alternative looking into switching to codeberg apparently money situation bad enough where tammy's asking about it regularly going to morning market valentine's day i take shift from tammy looking at wiki, open project and etc for coop motorcycle for maokong for coworking situation get youtube on jellyfin make up workday post for commonwealth magazine yanshui beehive fireworks? or at least editing the photos for it we're watching ham at some pont cool mliberation leftist festival thing

  • March

    looks like lots of calls with potential 508 members still in couple's counseling word camp asia cryptocurrency trading underway make it to the only book meetup i ever made it to that year, rushed there after washing dishes job interviews zach ormonde contract kevin lands? dune :o watching shogun demand letter sent to favorited amos leaves taiwan looks like i was feeling undisciplined listening to history of videogames met with david tesler to get 5k out of him, fucker. at least i haven't heard back since closed lakos the same day, nice got covid was at 97 kilos… ugh. deployed coolify wordpress sundance asia project lots of notes about richard :[ started looking at cohere growthexpertz tells us about clutch.co some more jovono looks like lots of self frustration and hatred at self discipline, anger at not going to gym or whatever, wow so much more chill now lol but same behavior wrote some big taiwan plus thing woah, started on ritalin again towards the end of the month looks like i was wasting a lot of time on hacker news tammy having anxiety attacks

  • April

    completely filling my days with 508 meetings limin and them come to town bubble photoshoot with sean, never got him those photos, oh well rosa comes to town the scooter accident must have happened this month then go to wulai with her and kevin and tech gold event, i think that's where i found the wallet on the ground beer crawl and some serious job interviews japan trip with kevin and michael!! oh yeah huge earthquake in hualien spending more time at the ji spot, frustrated cause i could be coding instead fuckin with doom emacs too HELLA procrastination and guilt about it head massages with tammy restaurant killing my social life family talking about coming in september, mom doing calls for interviews starting to get worried about money, applying shitload jobs climbing with kevin and morgan and michael and nick meet with rosa and kevin and foss julienne guy at tea shop oh yeah rosa's mom too lots of akihabara in japan oh yeah and got 3ds

  • May

    g0v summit met with spin fashion in person, lol at that shangri-la "cafe far eastern" reservation, possibly afternoon tea with tammy? a shitload of 508 meeetings, i wonder what happened to all those people? wordpress discussion with mark more job interviews vision 0 bike ride, yikes, i remember having to strobe that, so fuckin dangerous fuckin like, 40 508 meetings, what the hell man party at teddy's house still meeting with devin commune project spicy chicken event, salad investigation meanwhile heavily recruiting for spin fashion, maybe that's why so many meetings gold card career talk? i fuckin bombed that dude oh, hacker house ai event, is that where I first met thor? oh first signs of google potential contract, shame that never happened paul cryptography project kickoff that time i put cones to block off fake sober and got hambaagu with the angela crew tammy was starting to feel hella resentful that she was spending all her time at the restaurant and i was living life. odd time libreadery with tammy, that was nice we got the jasmine plant the weird white guy outside our apartment saying "fei ji chang!!!" while jumping oh i was doing some cofactr taiwan protests at legislative yuan the aurora palestine flag incident battling the restaurant rat oh maaaan i was 93kg then :(((( hookah with marcin and them i do frontend for crypto trading app oh holy fuck the irs finally deposited, that was game changing for my money situation keep writing about being unfocused fuckin with totk and 3ds

  • June

    computex! furiosa more 508 meetings i think i went to play board games at that weird guy with the sick ass apartment more job interviews shawnee going away potluck, i was late cause restaurant. had tammy quit by now? trivia at ji spot jesus, still meeting with devin bidart bros i think tammy went to gaoxiong with limin really worried about restaurant still doing cofactr work, that's nice more bizdev meetings with 508 still questioning ritalin lol starting to question how long i can try to restaurant + code already stressed about cryptocurrency project oooh i got the miyoo mini, that's fun setting up commandbar for cofactr

  • July

    still 508 meetings? or interviews? cal.com meetings lol podcast, i should go listen to that at some point tammy organizes for me that haircut that took too long. nice massage though the disaster training week, how useless! more interviews first demo of crypto project tryna get lakos to pay with not CC lol

  • August

    foss conference start touring people for dingran? or we're looking for another location? more interviews another teddy lai party sapporo with tammy! discussions around switching gold card community from slack to something else oh we had that useless ji spot market neon white at michael's night we're doing cash runs for the ji spot straight from my bank account ugh maybe the restaurant is slowing down? I had a day of just multiple videogames and tv shows yeah it was closing time, pancake and eggs at angela's oh yeah we had cool airport hotel before flight to sapporo but this is also when i took richard to the lizard hotel which probably is what killed him :( tiger air flight horrible vote on riley's game in game jam, in the end happened without me the vote abroad conversations start happening go to lots of dessert places in osaka oh i did some mapillary, that's fun played metal slug oh my white leather shoes were fuckin bad with my feet aware of post restaurant trauma oh yeah cool old village as our last sapporo thing and the dope hotel with the tiny onsen was being fat AF on sapporo damn my feet were fucked up in sapporo regret not bringing big headphones on flight playing helldivers and wow, fun richard, yay

  • September

    charlie's been out of town since mid august woah parents move here! river tracing with tammy thomas tammy, that was cool, nice to know i'm still somewhat fit interviews kick off again in earnest tara's bday dinner, my parents came to that, wow helldivers on the calendar lol the plumber comes and fixes a bunch of our shit looking at apartments with my family a bbq my family ended up missing holy shit so many interviews reactwise interview on the 17th!! reactwise coding interview on the last shift at the ji spot see the hongshulin apartment late in the month tammy and i had a nice dinner

    mom's already doing interviews, i have 3 in a day i had a vue takehome assignment? jeez spend an hour waitig for cops to come get some car still in my retro videogame phase aww kevin michael game dates while kevin's in the usa go to wulai with the family, and david and alice. rain huh, lots of notes about vue i was thinking i was depressed apparently tryna get the crkbd keyboard working presidential debate lol oh restaurant was still going without me a bit and charlie and i had the falling out visit daily sun, kc's school back to playing cyberpunk, probably found the better interpolater mom got sick af wow, i was actually going on a couple jogs getting calendar set up for 508 lots of For All Mandkind still on twitter, yikes oh fuck that weird church guy playing space marine with david chat with thor about hackerhouse most of the time helping family, i'm stressed about not getting word done. My productivity probably wasn't that high, no wonder eric was thinking he could outcode me

  • October

    i think richard dies early in the month thailand and japan trip! amos is so right wing. sucks. spin fashion falls apart with echo mostly just reactwise oooh was addicted to reddit and hackernews again latest vlad taltos no wonder my productivity at reactwise was low… thailand trip too read polostan annoyed at being fat wedding boring AF first inklings that eric doesn't like me on the 16th cool communes girl in japan stressed about work already see alex in japan! tons of onsen in japan that weird burning man bar night where the japanese girls flirt with me and i skip the club aunt sara dies at some point oooh eric's "make it work, make it right, make it fast." Weiiiird mom gets a steamdeck both yuzu and the other one area dead now

    did like, one game of dnd

  • November

    cancelled dnd duck lunch with dujuan tammy birthday party! dumpling art buffet with kevin then i get sick af, covid? meet taipei startup festival simple kaffa with family colette comes! big family thanksgiving, so fun, korean dating sim lol

    oooo eric's stupid nextjs rewrite, i was blocked on him for that back into fountain pens, must have had the jesse bar night at some point, or last month nci sushi with tammy, disappointing but fun crappy intersection report

    started reading plato's republic start talking to yoyo about recruiting for him at some point, reread anathem and have a whole analog revolution and get obsessed with the long now and register for tidal thinking i'll pirate from them lol starting to notice eric sucks oh yeah briefly got into Leverage

  • December

    museum date with tammy, and then the nice cafe after! and villa.like massage hot pot with kevin ayy dinner with jay and then same place with kevin and tammy next day lol hackerhouse in gaoxiong gino comes! monitor breaks ugh rechao? oh the fuckin chaotic one? xmas coffee with thomas colette arives for christmas see wicked colette birthday dinner the laundries come D: rolling mud festival new years with laundries and michael at taipei 101 hating eric begins sometime this month

this is what my last year was about

We live our lives through distinct but interconnected aspects. Take a look at the areas below and ask yourself what the significant events in each of them were. Write down your answers.

  • Personal life, family
    • mom and dad moving here
    • richard dying
    • colette visiting twice
    • laundries visiting
    • aunt sara dying
    • sapporo trip with tammy, dates and whatnot, thailand trip
    • limin visits
    • lots of helping out family towards end of year
  • Career, studies
    • working at the restaurant, trying to make it succeed
    • BD drive at 508
    • shitload of 508 calls
    • tons of job hunting, job interviews
    • crypto project
    • cofactr
    • starting new gig reactwise
    • drama with getting paid by favorited
    • organizing 508 on FOSS services, wiki, openproject
    • hackerhouse in gaoxiong with thor
  • friends, community
    • tried out dnd
    • was briefly friends with charlie's crew and now not
    • kevin visiting! and again
    • japan trip with kevin and michael
    • frustration around restaurant killing social life
    • rosa visits
  • relaxation, hobbies, creativity
    • get back into analog reading and writing, and fountain pens
    • explore retro gaming, ds modding
    • getting more anti-consumerist, interested in used goods
    • briefly exploring game design and true engineering
    • more server stuff, spotify library and tryna get hdds working
    • published on commonwealth
  • physical health, fitness
    • at one point hit 93kg, june? do it again
    • fasting was working at the beginnign of the year
    • added OMAD to habits around november
    • i didn't miss a day for tracking calories, nice!
  • mental health, self-knowledge
    • suffers under restaurant, recovers after significantly
    • started ritalin again i think
    • apparently was feeling undisciplined towards beginning
    • therapy
    • the scooter accident
    • the long now / anathem obsession
  • habits that define you
    • cardio and lifting fell off hard
    • added staying off reddit/twitter etc and am very successful
    • moved youtube to be a hosted service and helped greatly with youtube addiction
    • all habits seemed to die hard in july
    • sticking around 60% for self actualization
    • stretching around 80%
    • meditation, fell off, allegedly around 57%
    • journaling completely fell off, 40%, but recovered hard at end of year
    • studying chinese fell off, but recovered in september, i cleared my flashcards, then fell again
      • at least i kept up lessons the whole year
    • jogging was actually good at beginning of year then fell off all year
    • bed 10 and wake up 7, lol nope
    • no couch, pretty good, 80%
    • weigh, good, near 100% most of the year
    • 5m shower good beginning of year, fell off, 50
    • wow backup everything in the dumps
    • no youtube, pretty good, now at 90%
    • no reddit and twitter was way down all year and recovered drastically in sep/dec
    • no phone in bed, abysmal
    • keg all over the place but 50% hovering
    • flashcards, lol. so much for that experiment
  • a better tomorrow
    • disaster training week
    • cone club
    • mapillary stuff

six sentences about my past year

  • the wisest decision i made….

    i feel like there isn't much lol

    • quitting the restaurant
  • biggest lesson i learned
    • i have limited energy and time
    • jobs are great to have lol
    • gotta say no
    • AI programming is huge
    • i can make fatal mistakes on the scooter, though i think i already knew
  • the biggest risk I took…
    • restaurant
    • 508 bizdev?
  • the biggest surprise of the year
    • getting into analog stuff, long now, writing, etc
    • how happy i was post-restaurant
    • how long i was able to get my weight
    • how much the laundries loved taiwan
    • the scooter accident
  • the most important thing i did for others
    • helped charlie with the restaurant
    • closing lakos and any other gigs
    • helping my parents move here
    • helping the laundries have fun
    • my cones
  • the biggest thing i completed
    • closing many 508 contracts
    • doing the restaurant
    • getting a new job
    • when i was losing weight, i did a great job at it

six questions about my past year

  • what are you most proud of?
    • the 508 contracts
    • surviving the restaurant
    • pirating headspace lol
    • maintaining so much networking
    • juggling reactwise with family moving here with thailand trip
  • Who are the three people who influenced you the most?
    • kevin
    • tammy
    • riley
  • Who are three people you influenced the most?
    • tammy
    • my parents?
  • What were you not able to accomplish?
    • weight loss
    • successful restaurant
    • mandarin high level, though it is improved
    • 508 isn't quite the level i'd hoped, but pretty good
    • never got to code a game or explore new programming langauges
  • What is the best thing you have discovered about yourself?
    • I'm pretty resilient
    • All told, my life is really good, really healthy, to where my therapist isn't sure what to treat
    • I've got time
    • I'm a pretty good engineer
  • What are you most grateful for?
    • Tammy
    • Taiwan
    • My friends, riley, kevin, michael, bogdan
    • My family
    • Nestor
    • the internet
    • ai

the best moments

Describe the greatest and most memorable, joyful moments from last year. Draw them on this sheet. How did you feel? Who was there with you? What were you doing? What kind of smells, sounds or tastes do you remember?

  • That museum and cafe date with tammy

    it was kinda cold and i found some guy's camera, and the coffee made me jittery

  • Sapporo street, first night, getting ice cream with tammy

    finally free of the restaurant

  • getting the reactwise gig
  • getting the IRS check
  • kevin visiting

    getting tea that first night, chilled out, he was sick lol bike ride towards the end

  • japan trip with kevin and michael

    walking around akihabara, walking every night in shinjuku street photography

  • yanshui beehive fireworks
  • the legislative yuan protests
  • the holiday coffee at thomas'

    thomas tammy tammy, really fuckin nummy german snacks

  • riversside bbq with lots of friends
  • rereading anathem

Three of my biggest accomplishments

  • list your three greatest accomplishments from the last year here
    • getting reactwise right after restaurant closes

      and keeping it through the trial period

    • helping my parents move here
    • achieving 93kg
    • getting lots of contracts through 508
  • What did you do to achieve these?
    • possibly, got back on ritalin
    • just didn't eat anything but dinner
    • got myself more organized, didn't spend time on timewasting activities

      didn't really play videogames or anything lol

    • stayed mindful?
  • Who helped you achieve these successes? How?
    • tammy by supporting me
    • other 508 members stepping up, nestor

Three of my biggest challenges

  • List your three biggest challenges from last year here.
    • the restaurant
    • job hunt, bad job market, money situation
    • family moving here and various obligations, richard dying, aunt sara dying
  • Who or what helped you overcome these challenges?
    • tammy helped a bit with restaurant, friends helped me try to set boundaries

      like kevin

    • riley got me some cofactr work so i'd have more money, thanks
    • tammy helped hugely with the family stuff, basically carried
  • What have you learned about yourself by overcoming these challenges?
    • i have limited energy
    • i need guardrails to stay focused and on task
    • over time i was much kinder to myself about lack of discipline, not sure why
    • i need to practice emotions, i'm practiced at intellectual engagement
    • i'm somewhat forgetful of basic shit like react basics or whatever
    • i'm pretty resilient and capable to do restaurant, 508, and cofactr at the same time

      compare to tammy who fell to pieces

Forgiveness

Did anything happen during the past year that still needs to be forgiven? Deeds or words that made you feel bad? Or are you angry with yourself ? Write it down here. Do yourself good by forgiving.

  • the scooter accident? i will never forgive i don't think
  • the restaurant. just move on, forget the money

Letting go

Is there anything else you need to say? Is there anything you have to let go of before you can start your next year? Draw or write, then think about it and let it all go.

  • weight loss, just take another crack at it

The past year in three words

Choose three words to define your past year.

  • exhausting
  • external / for others?
  • busy

The book of my past year

A book or a movie was made about your past year. What title would you give it?

  • Doing Too Much: How to Sabotage Your Potential By Doing A Lot Of Stuff At Once

Goodbye to your last year

bye aunt sara and richard and various fish

the year ahead

dare to dream big

> What does the year ahead of you look like? Why will it be great? What would happen

Reactwise goes really well, they fire Eric and we get great valuations and success. I get time to study cool programming things, focus a bit on 508, and do something with all the pedestrian rights stuff I'm filming. I stay engaged with weight loss and my journal and have something great to show for it by the end of the year. Tammy and I figure the stuff out with the stuff, and I've read and retained a lot of books.

This is what my next year will be about

Take a look at the areas of your life and decide your goals for each of them for the next year. Put those goals on the page—this is the first step towards realizing them.

  • personal life, family
    • tammy and i sort the thing
    • my family has a great time in taiwan and gets well established
      • we get to do lots of fun things together
    • colette moves here?
    • have fun with tammy a lot
  • career, studies
    • reactwise goes great, nice to have just one job
    • i keep 508 spinning slowly
    • i get to read some good books on anarchism, philosophy
    • i'd still like to pick up another programming language
    • i use ai programming to build out some other personal projects
  • friends, community
    • lots of good friend hangouts
    • some more taiwanese friends
  • relaxation, hobbies, creativity
    • lots of books read
    • lots of writing, journaling
    • singing?
    • play through some games on the list like dwarf fortress or other top rated ones
    • server hdd shit is fuckin sorted
    • getting gaming working on linux? pure linux, imagine
    • wayland on nvidia machine lol
  • physical health, fitness
    • here we go again: but for real this year, i need to get married dude
    • back into lifting
  • mental health, self-knowledge
    • more deep exploration and self optimization with therapist
    • overcoming childish deep dives into reddit, youtube,

      whatever other bleh stuff i constantly read about in my old journals

    • lots of actual meditation
    • waking up
  • habits that define you
    • much better habit participation across the board
    • absolutely 0 mindless engagement in reddit, twitter, HN, or discord or other analogues
    • clear out the mandarin flashcards and keep them cleared, start adding new words again

      more than daily usage apparently necessary

    • hardcore OMAD
    • lots of journaling, mindfullness, recording

      but do it in a way that's clear, useful, usable, so i can actually use this stuff for reflection, or search through it for when i need certain info

  • a better tomorrow
    • something dope with the cone club
    • food forests

Magical triplets for the year ahead

  • I will love these three things about myself.
    • focus and resiliency
    • good baseboard to build on top of
    • high capability
    • strong social network
  • I am ready to let go of these three things.
    • reddit, twitter, youtube, etc
    • mindless blerb
    • america lol
    • my fat phase
  • I want to achieve these three things the most.
    • weight loss
    • maintaining my job, income, growing reactwise into something that makes me rich and free
    • some kind of useful change in society either through cone club or food forest
    • huge amounts of books read and whatnot
    • good journaling, filling out my journal
  • These three people will be my pillars during rough times.
    • tammy
    • kevin
    • michael
    • my parents
    • riley
  • I will dare to discover these three things.
    • what it takes to be a weight lifter for real
    • how to feel, be intimate
    • success in a fuckin job
  • I will have the power to say no to these three things.
    • time wasting activities, reddit, youtube, etc
    • too much added shit, e.g. 508 or whatever
    • food
  • I will make my surroundings cozy with these three things.
    • videogames
    • good books, writing materials, pens, ink
    • analog and used stuff, and getting rid of shit
  • I will do these three things every morning.
    • something physical, incl stretching
    • meditation, self actualization
    • mandarin flashcards
  • I will pamper myself with these three things regularly.
    • long showers
    • good fiction
    • good videogames
    • going to interesting places
  • I will visit these three places.
    • somewhere in Taiwan i haven't been, preferably on a motorcycle
    • wulai this summer, more than once
    • maybe somewhere for reactwise?
    • well, japan soon lol
  • I will connect with my loved ones in these three ways.
    • intimacy, emotional intimacy
    • caring for tammy and paying attention
    • scheduling hangout time
  • I will reward my successes with these three presents.
    • new clothes, expensive nice clothes, when i lose weight
    • nice pens and inks
    • travel

Six sentences about my next year

  • This year I will not procrastinate any more over…
    • reading and learning
    • upskilling things i wanted to upskilling
    • getting back into the gym
    • all that fucking tedious shit on my todo list
  • This year I will draw the most energy from…
    • my friends
    • peace and quiet
    • my hope for the future
  • This year, I will be bravest when…
    • i'm hungry
    • i'm doubting my skills as an engineer or whatever
    • i'm faced with opportunities to feel emotions or intimacy
  • This year I will say yes when…
    • i have opportunities for emotional intimacy
    • i'm presented with a challenge at work
    • i get to hang with friends
  • This year I advise myself to…
    • chill out and focus in
    • plan and keep on top of schedule
    • journal regularly
    • don't skip the gym no matter how late i wake up
    • resist the surface level, tiktoky distractions

      psychofauna

  • This year will be special for me because…
    • A culmination
    • My family is here in taiwan!
    • I have a real job for the first time and am in taiwan
    • last year before 35
    • i'm going to set my fitness habit for the rest of my life
    • i'm going to read lots of great books
    • i'm going to have such a nice journal at the end of it
    • i'm going to learn to feel

My word for the year ahead

  • calm

Secret wish

Majillionaire that can unlock freedom for myself and my family and friends. I "wake up," maybe from my reading or something, significant revelation in anarchism / engineering.

Created: 2026-07-16 Thu 17:54