The past year Going through your calendar Go through last year’s calendar week by week. If you see an important event, family gathering, friendly get-together or a significant project, write it down here

january Looks like a long series of meetups on the calendar in the first 2 weeks of Jan, not sure I went to any. “Hang with loren” as well, pretty sure that fell through.

Jan 10 “finished take frontend masters webpack course,” i think I just started and never finished

Jan 12 “DR tatelman”, appointment about testosterone rec pretty sure, the one I dropped the ball on. Never got the huge panel of tests like the ecowhatevermologist recommended.

Jan 14th, solo camping trip to rancho

Lots of cardio shit. Looks like I was wearing my heart monitor in the first couple weeks of jan.

Jan 18, Alumni panel. Loved these.

Jan 28, point bonita lighthouse hike. This is where I met caroline! We got burritos after, long day, super fun. Parked on the street in SF like a jabroni.

Jan 30, had a hotpot at work.

February

Feb 1 talked on video chat with some aiesec punk, he never did follow through.

Feb 2 went to Tahoe until the 5th, took some snowboarding lessons, didn’t do too hot but not as bad as I might’ve imagined

Feb 6th - 10th was allhands. Met that one QA kid, we got along fine. He used to be a radio DJ. Really into hip hop.

Pretty sure riley landed around this time, and feb 11th and 12th we went to a hackathon. Caroline came as well, functioned as designer. Met that guy from europe that was apparently a famous GTA mod guy. 13th - 15th was the developer week thing at the embarcadero. Was riley actually in town for this? Shit, maybe it was a later hackathon. I think they had a reddit table at dev week, also I met the pluralsight guys here, which got me into that site a bit.

16th, useless H&R block appointment

22nd, burritos with terry, must have been a date, dunno what went down, don’t remember her…. Or was she that kind of chubby chick that didn’t really get a second date with? I think we met up at a bar in MV, shady place, got a drink… might’ve been her

23rd, rancho san antonio with cris, that girl was talkative, into drama, firey little nymph, then did her ash wednesday no sex thing

25th, castle rock state park, this is where I met Christa!!! And that angry guy that yelled at us about drinking water lol

26th I guess I hung out with carolin? This might ahve been when I drove up with my bicycle and we rode aroudn the embarcadero, got oysters at that oyster bar I love. Went up to coit tower or whatever, that was exhausting. I thik that I was our last date

27th dr kaiser appointment, I think i had been really sick earlier in jan and had all sorts of weird heart shit that was freaking them out

March 3rd, had a date that I brought to that meetup at oren’s hummus, had that one guy that bought everyone dinner and was super weirdly gregarious. Odd

4th, did the batting cage night with those guys I used to bowl with, jay and them. Man. I think I did a hike that morning as well, little yosemite. Lots of metups damn

9th, khan academy meetup, girls mostly, it was fun. Damn good food. Impressed by their building

11th, hosue party at jake’s one of jay’s crew, bowling guys. Boring AF party iirc, brought Cat and cake.

14th, hung with alex, don’t remember what we did

17th, claw shack with alex, christa, kristin, ying ying! Good times. Messy

18th “ben’s going away thing,” can’t remember if i went to this

30th saw ghost in the shell, shame it wasn’t as good as I hoped, loved the robot dude’s voic ethough

April 1st, april fool’s party, don’t remmeber this too well, was gonna have pranks I thought? Ivan and his girl came up

7th stayed in the city that weekend, met the french people. 8th or 9th drove them in the mustang to santa cruz down highway 1. Long day, great pictures. That one french girl with the big booty wanted to start a business. Later that night find she has a BF.

14th, troy’s party, I may have went to this one, don’t recal. Did I bring that blonde haired kid? That time that he was full dick mode for some reason?

21st, asif party, don’t remember why i missed this

22nd comicon with abby

23rd, “check out dude’s motorcycle,” i can’t remember his name anymore, but the sv650! Ended up buying it shortly after.

27th another alumni panel

29th that really fun scripted hackathon, where i worked with the kids! Made some decent friends. Why didn’t I ever meet up with those folks again? Why did I let this fall through?

May

1st bought the motorcycle

6th motorcycling that I’m pretty sure didn’t happen, and yingying’s birthday party at AFK gg. Alex was there, that’s one of my tinder pictures of us on the couch with that rando asian chick lol

7th “zelda thing” and “weird festival,” i have no idea.

13th a hike with alex, tammy says mission peak. Must have been with his coworkers, I probably took the bike up that day. Had to get gas after lol. Alex took pics. I had my box by then. Also met tammy this night, took the car up, we got pho and bought a bottle of wine at safeway after. Was really into her, remember her being very into me. Baaaanged

15th “hang with candy,” i must have met her at one of the previous parties. That wasn’t going well

16th-18th, iot world, can’t remember what days I went but I was ready for the freeway on the motorcycle at this point. Remember being impressed with jaren’s EI knowledge.

19th-21st was “possibly napa,” was with christa/kristin? Never happened. Oh, we went camping instead, abby christa kristin alex yingying

27th-June4, Japan! With christa, kristin, and those two other peeps.

June 7th coffee with james shelburne, aiesecer that wanted to pitch his company’s meeting… recorder… thing. That email still sits in my work inbox i’m pretty sure 10th “backyard party” at 388 a capp st, might have been alex’s coworker? This might have been the time i brought up blondie

12th intern minigolf, mildly fun, those interns were cool. Jake was there too

14th “8p teaspoon with faith” no idea who that is

17th corgi con with abby, went to dodgeball after nico’s at dolores. We took the bike up and brought shitloads of icecream down after.

20th hugo’s speech at computer history museum, everyone knew apple so well, poor hugo didn’t get much of a word in edgewise. Talk with david outside after about catching these technologies as they come out - how he did it with JS kinda

21st Tool concert with alex, took the bike so couldn’t drink. That was good fun, weird that they had seats out though

24th “pride,” this is when I burned tammy hard enough for her to get salty about it. Went with abby. She had some dank concert. Went to humans vs zombies after and caught the tail end of a chatanooga party after, missed christa and kristin

25th, missed the doc wong turn clinic, was staying in a hotel downtown with abby, saw the symphony at 2pm, barely made it on time. Remember it being cool but weird

28th - july 2nd, houston for the beach house. Riley’s family came up as well. Dad has his drone I had splurged out hard and got him for his birthday. Tyler tried to go deep sea fishing

July 8th moto guild class, with patrick. Great fun, learned a lot, found out my chain was fucked

10th “prime day”, I was in the deep shit with buying way too much stuff

12th fixed my chain and sprocket, had “the turtles” saved, that was david’s show I think, Porbably missed it

15th JW welcome back party, pretty sure this was that DANK party at JW’s parent’s place I went to with abby, briefly met andrew’s kids outside, such good food, inspired by the old people knowhing how to party

22nd, run the jewels, shit that was a good concert

27th-30th vegas for defcon, with Jake the intern. Good ass time, learned little but greatly inspired

August 5th “saturday wine party,” probably a party at christa and kristin’s

9th slayer, dank concert. I think I stayed at the hostel

15th chris’ interview, I remember saying no but we took h im on. He’s cool.

16th incubus with tammy, we talked about how we both had been kinda seeing other people, she shared how I had low key faded her. Realized I must have been getting depressed, stuck with abby

25th-27th vegas with tammy and rachel. Debauched. Still hadn’t broken up with abby, tammy mad about that, we had a great time though. Nearly broke up with abby on ride home.

September 2nd die antwoord, convinced tammy to come at the last second, stayed at hers after. Getting mildly more serious

9th “backyard party” don’t remember

11th started using google auto reminder things again, gave up after like 3 weeks lol

12th yolo bought muse tickets with tammy, or at least checked of the reminder for it

15th muse with tammy, things getting heated. Must have broke with abby nearly after

19th “molly” pretty sure that date never happened, i messaged her happy new years recently and didn’t see evidence of us hanging

22ndish - 24th ish mexico with qing and abby, beach resort, dank

26th dylan visited SF, went with tammy to a bar downtown to say hayo. She met asif. Alex came too

October

7th morning ride, must have been that first barf ride I went on. Decently fun 11th baked soething with jenny 12th hung with alex 13th picked up jeremy from airport, that guy smokes a fuckload of weed 14th dolores park with alex jeremy, got ice cream, walked around a SHITLOAD, think we ended up in downtown at some point?

15th started copying tammy’s “diary calendar” thing. Wishing now I hadn’t wrote just the name with the description in notes

15th hung with jeremy and tammy, drove the motorcycle to alice’s restauraunt so he could do the WRX thing

16th megan, think I picked her up and we baked and hooked up. Super hard to hang with that girl

18th finally chagned motorcycle oil,

19th-22nd went to new york, visited rilye, hung with him and hannah

24th didn’t cancel myfitnesspal

25th hung with candy, chilled in the hottub and helped her with c++

26th “jamie” i don’t remember her

27th halloween party at christa and kristins! Tammy came in a shark costume and said girls made fun of her on the train

28th odesza, tried MDMA and didn’t really like it, also hung out all day in berkely with tammy’s friends, dad bod mode, had a great time

30th got a heart monitor on again

November 10th tammy’s birthday at laser tag. Everybody came. Even gino

11th tammy left before D&D, did D&D with alex, george, mike, qing, abby. My new campaign that I was super excited about, the murder mystery

13th hung with selina, got tea and banged, watched that social media dare game

14th saw thor with tammy

15th was supposed to hang with rico, didn’t

17th went to the bar for libby’s bday, outside bar. Got ice cream. Talked to taiwan guy about motorcycles. Went to wolf’s den

18th dubstep - went to seven lions with some of tammy’s friend. She got FOMO when we didn’t fight into the crowd.

22nd date with lizzie, only ever hung once. She loves to smoke

23rd bake da pumpkin role and playe zelda with tammy. Had thanksgiving lunch at steph’s place

24th motorcycled to rancho san antonio with tammy, ate a shitload of sushi and played mario on the switch

25th friendsgiving and wolf’s den, people loved my food. So much omg

27th lowkey no bang date with cheryl. She had a great time

28th headed down to santa cruz to hang with charmaine. Poetic as fuck girl, banged, she was into me but she’s in santa c ruz

29th holiday party at the winery, went with tammy, had a fantastic night

30th trivia with the bby crew, hated it

December 3rd drove tammy to airport so she could go to austin for her being awesome businesswoman thing

6th met rachel, played zelda. Her hair smells bad

7th went to a protest for net neutrality. Didn’t really participate, just took pics

8th got dinner with ramin and tammy, smoked

9th santacon with tammy, so inspired and very into eachother, first love, view bar, felt like a king

10th hike with alex at lake chabot, DND at thao’s place

13th yahoo xmas party with rico

16th motorcycle ride crystal and carolin, went to some holiday rager with tammy and caroline after. Caroline had crashed

20th met up with rooze after staying at his place for the week before, very much into it and we settled on a price and date.

22nd-28th Houston, didn’t do that much but hang with family and occasionally riley/stu/tyler

23rd rooz calls says I can’t move into his palce

29th-1st snowglobe with tammy and a couple of her friends, stay at airbnb, we both realize we don’t like music festivals that much. Think during countdown and fireworks “here we go.”

This is what my last year was about What aspects were the most important to you in the following areas last year*? Which happenings or events were the most significant? Summarize briefly. personal life and family Learning how to control myself better, reading good books on habit, subtle art, reareading dale carnegie. Discovering me. Not much from family

work, studies, profession As always, a strong desire to work harder. Feeling very confident at work towards the end of the year, didn’t study as much as I hoped but picked up a couple tricks like webpack and vue. Read a TON of great books, nonfiction and fiction

belongings (home, objects) Bought too much, but at least I have a shitlaod of camping gear. Nice TV, switch as well. Filled out the kitchen pretty decently also. Couple plants, too? I think I bought the bamboo and etc this year. Termaters. Nice new onebag system. A MOTORCYCLE. Gear for it. Eye mask so i can sleep good. relaxation, hobbies, creativity Lots of photography done, getting better at it, getting better at editing. Decent amount of journaling and writing, getting that more locked down. Even some short stories thrown on reddit. New hobby - motorcycling. Still not too hot, getting better. Went through a quick ink paiting phase after being inpsired at ramen fest, the paints are still downstairs and haven’t been touched but once or twice. Meditated a good bit at the beginning of the year, stopped towards the end.

friends, community Made so many great friends, christa and kristin, joey and jay and those guys, some motorcycle friends like crystal and carolin, tammy’s entire crew, abby’s crew, alex’s coworkers health, fitness Still haven’t achieved my fitness goals but at least my numbers went up. IIRC squat around 210 right now, deadlift about the same (45 with a 35), OHP is about 100, bench about 145. Started running in the mornings, not as consistent as i’d like but can do a cool 2.7 miles no problem Intellectual Lots of great books, really understand what it’ll take now after reading Outliers. Have a far more realistic understanding of my abilities now, thanks tammy and Subtle Art. Greater appreciation than ever for planning and the amount of work learnign something takes. I can see through my journals my journey growing throughout the year emotional, spiritual Allowing myself to become close to tammy, switching between not needing a single girl ever attitude when I was breaking up with abby to understanding the value in investing in a single person with tammy, appreciating How to Win friends principles more, switching from abandoning trump supporters to attempting to have a dialogue just to see what happens Finances Spent Too Much Goddamned Money, it’s really absurd. Need to do a finance plan after this. Bought a lot of stuff I didn’t need, bought weed, expensive meals, so much camping gear I don’t need, stuff stuff stuff. At least I paid off the car. bucket list** Bought a motorcycle Visited Japan Visited Vegas

Six sentences about my past year The wisest decision I made… Taking Tammy seriously? The biggest lesson I learned… Vigilance is necessary to maintain discipline. The biggest risk I took… Trusting Tammy with all of me, or buying the motorcycle and riding it around The biggest surprise of the year… I can have an important person in my life The most important thing I did for others… The protest? The talks at Makersquare? The kiddo hackathon?

The biggest thing I completed… Fulfilling my dream of getting a motorcycle? Seeing Tanchin again and seeing that it’s over? The car loan? Vue stuff? Having a hard time coming up with something extraordinarily difficult I did. Started tracking bodyweight? Six questions about my past year What are you the most proud of? Lots of great trips and new friends, the motorcycle, growing up, taking care of my termaters, journaling pretty heavily towards the end of the year, becoming more self aware, doing a decent job of being less of a dick, sticking with Tammy, getting laid a comical amount, decent stuff done at work particularly with setting up vue and webpack, slaying tons of bugs, the kiddo hackathon, helping riley and jeremy in the city, baking a lot, cooking at snowglobe, lots of fun concerts and yoloness, somehow maintaining a semblance of a savings account, getting ready to move to SF, lots of hostel stays there, riding safe as much as possible, compost and recycling, sticking to my values pretty intensely, letting go of reddit while in houston over christmas and possibly cutting the addiction for good as a result. Giving up cereal mostly. Sending postcards. Who are the three people who influenced you the most? Tammy Alex Abby Who are the three people you influenced the most? Tammy Abby Alex? What were you not able to accomplish? Getting a fatass savings account Getting a second source of income Helping colette Blowing people away at work Completing berkely AI Hardware, raspberry pi Chinese Math Camping a shitload (got some done though) Cooking intensely (got some good baking done though) Visit Tim Competetive sport (fencing, climbing) Being awesomely skinny and fit Learning a new programming language Work remotely in a different country Locking down discipline What is the best thing you have discovered about yourself? I can grow up and control myself. What are you the most grateful for? The opportunities provided to me by my lot in life, great books, good friends I can trust, endless information on the internet, good fiction. The best moments Describe the greatest and most memorable, joyful moments from last year. Draw them on this sheet. How did you feel? Who was there with you? What were you doing? What kind of smells, sounds or tastes do you remember?

Japan, old friends and new ones (satsuki). Felt like I was in asia, inspired, traveled. Spoke decent japanese for only having practice a couple weeks before the trip. Great party in the club that one night, just let go, did karaoke with satsuki after

Driving down hw1 in the mustang. Beautiful women, kind man. So much opportunity in the young girl, so much life and activity.

Good hikes with alex. Smiles and laughs. Confidence in him as a friend.

Feelings of goodness with christa and kristin, happiness for their happiness.

Confidence in Tammy, moments of trust and investment. A life gamble? A sure bet.

View Hotel, the city at my disposal.

Returning to Houston in xmas, going into the gym the richest man there. Feeling like a certified badass.

Girls that make me feel successful, disciplined. Throwing my big cash dick around.

Top of the firefox building after the hackathon, tired, new friends. They were gonna do a run and then go swimming after.

Nights out with ramin.

Camping, overcoming my fear. Hiking with jenny at night, the same. Baking with jenny.

Motorcycle rides, overcoming The Fear. Locking it down and keeping myself safe. Pushing the turns, sometimes so far it makes me giddy or I get a weird response from the bike.

Solving bugs at work, coming close to those guys. Going to david’s for a party.

Great parties in the city, staying at the hostel, working downtown, working in santa cruz.

Great casual night smoking pot and baking cookies.

Relaxing nights with tammy in, we have the whole world at our fingertips, we can create an experience together, whatever we want, in our oyster. Safety.

Fancy dinners out with tammy, with jenny and alex.

Writing late at night. Journaling in the shower.

Exhaustion after overcooked with family.

Great concerts, good dancing. Muse! RTJ!

Three of my biggest accomplishments List your three greatest accomplishments from last year here. Getting the motorcycle and getting confident on it. Going on so many trips but not pissing work off doing so. Reading so many books and slowly giving up reddit. Staying relatively consistent at the gym. What have you done to achieve these? Work hard occasionally, be a constant positive force at work that cares about the product. Take initiative organizing, be a yes man. Making time to read, choosing good books. Putting my phone away when the itch comes on. Who helped you achieve these successes? How? My motorcycle friends, that guy that sold me his bike. My friends willing to go on trips with me, like christa, kristin, tammy, abby. People on the internet recommending good books, and ferris and musk for their speedreading tips. Three of my biggest challenges List your three biggest challenges from last year here. Overcoming love of food to focus on dieting. Staying relatively consistent at the gym. Overcoming my asshole attitude. Who or what helped you overcome these challenges? Setting goals and tracking calories, including just mealprepping hardcore. Simply getting up in the morning and going, setting a schedule and making a plan and staying consistent. Reading, thinking, trying to be more mindful. What have you learned about yourself while overcoming these challenges? I still have work to do, but it’s doable. I need to set plans and overcome bad habits to achieve my goals. I need to be realistic about the time necessary to achieve something and let go of bad time consuming habits. Forgiveness Did anything happen during the past year that still needs to be forgiven? Deeds or words that made you feel bad? Or are you angry with yourself? Write it down here. Do good for yourself and forgive.*

Lying about knowing what stop we were at in Japan. Internet trolls. Trump. Not hitting my fitness goals. Overspending like a motherfucker. Missing the end of my FSA. Not doing as good as I could at work, hardware, new languages. Squandering the year of opportunity when it comes to professional and educational goals, but I did makes lots of friends and have a GOOD time Bragging incessantly about motorcycle stuff. Letting go Is there anything else you need to say? Is there anything you must let go of before you can start your next year? Draw or write, then think about it and let it all go. Hard to let go of lies but I need to start living an honest life. Be that man you always wanted to be, the seemingly unachievable Dalinar Kholin. Another year, another chance to put money away and get fit. You’re not 30 yet, you still have 2 more years of youth to swing this shit. You can get it done in 2018. Year of awesome. Year of action. And now you have an incredible support system you spent 2017 building up. The past year in three words Choose three words to define your past year. Friends. Fun. Exploration. The book of my past year A book was made about your past year*. Write down its title. Going A Little Overboard - A Man Buries Himself in Debauchery Farewell to your last year If there is anything else left that you would like to write down, or there is anybody you would like to say goodbye to, do it now. Really, hot anime girl, bye lol. She’s got a BF, though we barely brushed shoulders in Japan. Bye, Tanchin. Good luck with your squats. Bye for now Jessica, sorry I didn’t visit you like I promised I would in 2017. Goodbye, cereal and reddit. Though, I suspect I’ll always be battling you. Bye mountain view (hopefully soon) Bye, bad habits?

The year ahead- 2018 Dare to dream big What does the year ahead of you look like? What will happen in an ideal case? Why will it be great? Write, draw, let go of your expectations and dare to dream.

2018, a year of action. Making good progress on old goals, locking them down, finally achieving some or making a valient effort to do so. Good content produced, exploring new mediums like youtube and piano and guitar and drums and FLstudio. Playing around and being creative, being happy and giving happiness to my friends. Armful of good close friends I can trust. Going out and seeing the city, exploring my (hopefully) new neighborhood. Good foot. A fat savings account, but low bodyfat. Track time on the bike, getting that knee down. Finally becoming who I want to be. This is what my next year will be about Define the most important aspects of next year in the following areas*. Which events will be the most important? Summarize briefly. personal life and family Fleshing out relationships I founded in 2017 but let falter towards the end. Exploring this new thing with Tammy. Learning more about my capabilities in new areas like music. Keeping an eye on my family. work, studies, profession Actually being a badass employee at work while picking up new skills like Python and hardware engineering. Building out some APIs, maintaining good relationships with all my coworkers. Keep bringing them food! Learning a lot, reading even MORE than I did in 2017! Take some classes, maybe even tackle EMT or similar at some point. belongings (home, objects) I think I’m good, guys. I have enough stuff. I know I want an underquilt, might end up getting a couple other ultralight items. Probably need to get new sheets. May end up with more furniture if we move to an unfurnished place. Some more plants! Lots of books, mostly online. Potentially a surface book or other laptop format, much later in the year, if the surface pro holds me back. Probably need to get new vibrams. Reward myself with lots of new clothes and casual motorcycle gear when I achieve my fitness goals. relaxation, hobbies, creativity Let’s try music out. Keep up the writing you were doing towards the end of the year. Enjoy time relaxing at night, smoking weed sometimes. Kick it with rick and morty. Keep doing that baking thing, that’s fun. Explore creativity in new ways. Maybe try more of that ink painting stuff, try out a photoshop tutorial, try making some videos. friends, community Build out your friendship. Take advantage of the move to the city to ingratiate into the tech community. Do more civic hack nights, maybe start your own project. Alex, christa, kristin, ramin, david, ben, tammy, tammy’s crew, alex’s crew, rico. Rachel? Who new? health, fitness 15% bodyfat. Can be done. 185 Bench, 250 squat and dead. 110 OHP. 3 miles without stopping. 2018 is the year you look good. Now. Intellectual Read lots. Get that python down, start penetrating systems, learn bash and etc. Have intelligent hardware conversations. Hold your own. Meetups about stuff you don’t understand. Don’t let your intellect stagnate like you always worried about in college. Explore storytelling, tell your own stories, write about other people’s stories, their techniques, in movies, what you’d do differently. Be critisized.

emotional, spiritual Let’s do meditation often. Mindefulness. Eat food slowly. Explore your own experiences. Write about them. Record as many moments as you can. Explore a relationship with tammy, sharing, budding a romance and being honest with someone. Finances Will build hard goals for myself later, but let’s say at least a cool 20k in savings by the end of the year. Good budgeting practices, checking my budget before a purchase, planning nights out and trips and meals better. You have some good data, use it! bucket list** Knee down People read my blog Python confidence Finished Berkely AI Secondary source of income LLC Made a song Made an art Worked abroad Had a conversation in Chinese Had a conversation in Japanese Ate at a michelin starred restaurant

Magical triplets for the year ahead These three things I will love about myself. My passion. My discipline. My creative thinking. My values and ability to stick to them. I am ready to let go of these three things. Being fat, being dishonest, giving in to bad habits.

These three things I want to achieve the most. Healthy body, confidence in my love of others and self, being a city-ruling badass These three people will be my pillars during rough times. Tammy, Alex, colette? These three things I will dare to discover. Music, ability to let my walls down for tammy, my discipline limits? Technical limits? These three things I will have the power to say no to. Food i don’t need to eat, purchases I don’t need to make, timewasting activities I don’t need to do These three things I will make my surroundings cozy with. Plants, art, hammocks These three things I will do every morning. Meditate, journal, stretch, flashcards (if on train), run (in evenings if necessary, - or bike to train) These three things I will pamper myself with regularly. Hot showers. Pot nights baking with a friend. Fantastic fiction. Drinks in expensive bars high up in the air. These three places I will visit. Europe. Asia. Someplace deep in the wilderness. I will connect with my loved ones in these three ways. Share vulnerabilities. Create art together. Hang, a lot. With these three presents will I reward my successes. New clothes and motorcycle gear when I achieve my fitness goals. Dinner at a michelin star restaurant at first deposit of secondary source of income. A new motorcycle when I get my knee down. Six sentences about my next year This year I will not procrastinate any more to… Achieve my secondary source of income goals (new projects!) or do creative activities This year I will draw the most energy from… My relationship with Tammy and my focus on achieving a good future This year, I will be the bravest when… I’m on the track pushing my bike, I’m exposing myself to criticism with my creative work, I am challenged to stay disciplined in the face of something traumatic or just a holiday, I’m opening myself up to tammy This year I will say yes when… People want to hang, people want to make music together, I wonder if I should work out / run, I wonder if I should go to x meetup, This year I advise myself to… Stick with it and journal regularly. Record your experiences and time spent doing activities. Make plans to achieve goals, have plans ready for when you feel an urge for a bad habit. Give mini breaks to yourself that can’t be sunk into too much time like reddit. Show up early to shit. Stay away from distractions. Find ways to decrease pressure and make discipline activities enjoyable or just rote. This year will be special for me because… I’m going to achieve a lot of the goals I’ve had for a long, long time. I’m going to discover new and exciting things about the world and myself because of this. My word for the year ahead Pick a word to symbolize and define the year ahead. You can look at this word if you need some extra energy, so you remember not to give up your dreams. Action.

Secret wish Unleash your mind. What is your secret wish for the next year? I make a company and it explodes. I finish a book. I publish something that makes me famous. Tammy and I become a power couple earlier than we predicted. I buy property in the city. Things spiral out of control in the best kind of way. I make incredible music, I become awesome at it, I fully realize that esoteric thing I feel about music I hear. I become a jack of all trades at work and leverage that to become part time there while I work on other things elsewhere. I become great friends with all my coworkers. I build amazing hardware things, I discover unheard of vulnerabilities. Become amazing, people listen to you. Known. A checkmark next to your name on twitter.